NEVER


This person never

Smiled at me

Laughed with me

Looked at me

or even spoke to me

Yet everday of our

lives together I

wanted him to

Notice me

Validate me

Appreciate me

Be grateful for me

all the while knowing

that he NEVER deserved me

Such an ugly person

with an ugly personality

DESERVES to be lonely

© she
February 19, 2017

IOWA SKIES

Evading the Iowa 

skies she returned 

back to them with 

hopeful eyes Only 

to find nothing’s 

changed No ones 

changed Once again 

feeling imprisoned 

within them Twenty 

years avoiding what 

she feared Having 

no other choices, 

but to return back 

to them

© she
February 19, 2016

BULLY


*BULLY*

How can he say that it isn’t
mentally or emotionally abuse
when he’s been saying these
thirteen words for years

“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”
“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can just leave”

Slowly and unconsciously
coaching his son to treat his
wife and the mother of thier
child the same way…

He may as well start saying,
“If you don’t like the way WE’RE
treating you, then you can leave”

Two bullies ganging up on
a woman who doesn’t
deserve it No one deserves
to be bullied

WHAT’S A BULLY? A BULLY
is a person who uses strengh,
power and control to
intimidate those who are
weaker typically to force
him or her to do what one
wants.

“If you don’t like the way I treat you, then you can leave”

And finally one day she did

© she
July 19, 2016

THIS IS ME UNSHELTERED


UNSHELTERED

This is what I look
like when I’m
unsheltered

Not necessarily
happier but also
not as stressed as
I find myself right
now

It seems the
worry becomes
intense knowing
that I’m here and
the fear of the
unknown and
the anxiety of the
unclear

Will I ever
look this way again
Half complete
without a home
or without a true
or trusting friend

Taking for granted
of what I had then
constantly
undecided about
what’s best for
me in the end

Being sheltered
doesn’t define me
But I’m oh so afraid
that being here
will remind me

That I was once
nothing and
will always be
nothing to anyone
who knows this past
of mine

And being here
has tramatized me
once again
Will I end up here
again and again?

Physically and
mentally a cycle
without a
brighter
end

© she
February 10, 2017