Four walls and a roof
With nothing else
Sitting quietly on the floor
With no one but yourself

You play it over
in your mind
The material things
that you had

But when you think
of what you gave up
It only makes you

Listening to people
who in essense
discounted how you

Those people have
no worries
None like the ones
you’ve been dealt

Four walls and a roof
With nothing else
Staring at the cracks
Silently crying for help

Watching the cockroaches
as they come and go
Soon to become the only confidants
you’ll know

Hopes and dreams
Fears and longing

You wish you could
close your eyes
And make them appear
and disappear

insensitive people
Preaching life should
be as easy as 1-2-3

When the less fortunate people’s lives
have never worked that chronologically

Four walls and a roof
With a big ass hole
Exposed to all elements
And especially to
your soul

You wonder why it’s you
That’s suffering here so
While he’s living in comfort
And you’ve no where to go

Instead of being angry
that he was the cause
of why you’re here

You blame yourself tremendously
You should have
been more aware

Deprived of an essential human need
Silence was always a punishment indeed

Four walls and a roof
Much like before
living in solitude
behind a closed door

The loneliness never ends
and now it’ll become worse
Like living in a padded room
Questioning if your life is a curse

Have you gone
from bad to worse?
You ask yourself
Could being alone
alone drive one insane?

Four walls and a roof
These poverish conditions
No positive intuitions
Just continuous positions

People shouldn’t tell you
that life will get better
Because it’s like making a guarantee

But when you’ve done
your best and still end
up with less
A shattered faith
is what they’ll see

Four walls and a roof
Once again you feel imprisoned
A voluntary admission
This time of your own infliction

You question yourself
You second guess yourself
Is alone the way
you really want it to be?

These decrepit old walls
And rickety old floor
Large whole in the roof
Cockroaches under
the floor

Is living this way
Still worth it anymore?

But never ask
a pretentious person
because they’ll tell you
that it is

When they wouldn’t
do it themselves
So they need to
quit talking shit

© she
Mar 12 2016
Art by Hearthy


14 thoughts on “FOUR WALLS & A ROOF

  1. i can not tell you how many times i have been in such a position…….second guessing, cursing……wanting to go back in times…….well……..after failing, falling so mmany times…….i made it a mission to get up and go on…..that what i aim now……….i don’t know what’s worth what……..but such persistence must be worth something…….
    beautiful….thougtful…..poem…..loved this! 🙂 🙂

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    1. Thank you for your kind words that you enjoyed this heartfelt poem. Even when I read it back myself, I think how compelling!
      Seems (duh!) I’m always in this frustrated mode when I write things like this. I used to share my poetry on Google Plus and it just trusted me that people choose not to understand and are insensitive to others struggles. I think I was having that kind of frustrate moment when I wrote this.

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      1. i can understand……this is not my first time on the internet…….i have tried….all of them…..but i have made peace with the fact that……with poetry…….only the ones who have been through such incident will be able to appreciate and seek…….now even i sometimes… not leave comment…….they have broken me…. lol

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      2. Aww! You and I write poetry. But I write mine from the heart ( not saying that you don’t, I have read deep into yours) I wrote as I feel the strong emotions, but people still don’t seem to get it, ya know?
        If I read more poems like mine I swear, I’d need a box of tissues. But you know what, that’s OK because at that moment their words have touched my soul, in which I then validate it.

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