My back Story
Here in Texas one can file for a divorce and get things going and it’d be done and over with in three months. Maybe it was wishful thinking for me. I was gullible, overly anxious and stupid for thinking that was actually going to happen for me as well. I’d had a legal aid attorney was unseasoned and taking his sweet time and my NARC had…let’s say a vicious seasoned one.
I’d already escaped to Austin Texas after doing everything that everyone suggested that I do (shelter, help from women’s support programs, churches, I had no friends, I had no family, I didn’t have a job and if I did I couldnt wait an addition 5 years to save up what I needed to leave him, etc, etc), I’d tried all the things people said regarding “leaving your narc”. So I’ve been there and done that.
I was struggling, scared. Moving from place to place in Austin with what little I’d had. So no one can’t tell me that I hadn’t tried. Long story short, this divorce was taking forever, I was trying to be patient, I would walk the streets of Austin and see homeless people on the corners of every street. They would come approach me asking for change for the bus and I’d burst out in tears. I told myself that I didn’t want to end up like them.
Eventually I got on Craig’s list and found an old lady roommate who was…guess what? A damn narcissist! How ironic huh? I ATTRACT THESE PEOPLE or I swear I’m magnetically attracted to them. I don’t know. Anyway she was bat crazy. I mean frightening and I had to get out. Once again I was practically homeless. I was waiting and waiting for this divorce to happen, maybe I’d get some alimony. I don’t know. I was a strong Christian and started believing that maybe God wanted me to go back to him, because every attempt my attorney and I were trying my narc’s attorney kept defeating us. Maybe this was a sign? Plus whatever money I had saved up, if they took half of it because of child support, I’d be destitute anyway. So I put my tail between my legs and came crawling back to my narc in 2013, and he’s made my life even more of a living hell than before.
And that’s my back story. This is why I’m still here. This is why alot of wives of narcs are still here. A woman, two days ago, put up a quote of facts as to why most of us can’t leave I thank her for that because those facts are true.
Why am I telling you this? Because people need to know why it’s not that easy.